Standing Against the World

It's a feeling you can't hide or deny. You want to run away from everything that you've created and start afresh. You feel the need to just rush into a room and lock yourself where no one can find you.

Negativity is all that goes around and comes back around to you. It's all an unbelievable mess! Well what can you expect one to do in such situations in the present generation? Life is a competition and we are all racing towards achieving endless goals. "I want to be better than him/ her" , "I want to get the newly launched cell phone", "I want a bigger home to live in" , I want this and I want that...! This is all we do! We just want everything for the sake of others not because you deserve it or not because you love to earn it.

If Mr.X says that the outfit I am wearing looks terrible on me then I would chose to believe him rather than the choice I made to wear that particular outfit. We choose to believe people who enter our lives after ourselves, who we believe know us better than ourselves. Why can't we just stop for a minute and think! Why can't we live life as it comes to us and not try and jumble things to make it as we want it to be. Why can't we just be clear of what we want to do and what we have to do? Why is there a word like "maybe" in our dictionary? Think over it, if life would just exist on Yes and No with a perfect blend of self-confidence, things would definitely be less complicated.

If you want something, ask for it. If you wish to say something, jut say it. You don't like it, just be blunt and speak the truth. If you stand against the odd with this attitude nothing is definitely going to pull you back down! The way you live life simply depends on the way you want to. Your life completely and totally depends on what you make of it. 

Standing against the odds is a challenge not everyone passes. Many fall and many just surpass it by facing it like just another problem. A movie I watched has quite taught me how to control what I have to hear and what is completely needed to be filtered and heard. The movie's name is "Shawshank redemption"- a 1994 American drama film written and directed by Frank Darabont and starring Tim Robbins and Morgan Freeman. Thank you Jolene Saldanha for introducing me to this movie. I strongly recommend each one of you to watch this movie. It just changes the mindset of a person to a great extent. I agree implementing is difficult but I'm sure you will make efforts to work on them after having watched this movie.

Standing against the odds? Well,Frank Darabont couldn't have explained what I want to say in any other way humanly possible. Here is a short trailer so you catch a glimpse of the movie: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NmzuHjWmXOc 

Believe me or not the inspiration Andy could give any man is a controversial topic but there is no doubt that it could change you for a bit. 

And So I would like to end this article on a small note which is a small quote in the words of Andy, "Get busy living or Get busy DYING!" - It is simply by your choice!

Hoping that this article would have changed a little bit from withing you, if not a lot! :D

It's Just YOU and ME...!

It's the expression you need to read, 

The actions you need to see,

It's the love you need to share, 

To see each others loving care,

It's the fights that need to take place, 

For the spark to ignite and blaze, 

It's when I have a fall, 

That I get a phone call,

It's that moment of truth, 

When you stand and look like a crook,

It's those eyes that watch me all the time,

When I'm wrong or right to change what is mine,

It's my blonde brains,

That gets your way of thinking a strain,

It's when you said you needed m' 

That I felt you presence at a spree,

It's when you said so cruelly,

We have no future that you could see,

With all the drama tagging along,

Life seems but a boring song,

And that is when you come along 

So I can say this on and on...

It's your pure heart that makes me say today, 

I need you every day.

Just been a long journey ...! - Mumbai !

Been a long time since I've written, but Hey its been a long long year and a very long long time.

Its a crazy journey that life takes you onn when in Mumbai. A city that never sleeps, a city filled with lights, drama, action and liveliness.

From the people to their culture , from the way of living to the attitude, everything is just a step different from other parts of the world. I'd like to refer them as the Mumbai nomads. People who know a lot but yet behave like they were born just yesterday.

The food here is fast not fresh but simple. Well someday that is what will keep anyone coming back for more. The travel may just make you say "Not another day please".

Its a different way of living here. I'm just a newbee rider in the city but I'm already on fire. That's what this city makes you; bold beautiful and furious... All at the same time. Living in Mumbai surely does not want me to get out of here but yes there is a light which I search for to see a Mumbai which most of us dream of. Clean and green, fresh and peacful, nonetheless... Its Mumbai nagaria. N I'm loving it.

My past year had been an adventure up side down but that's just made me a stronger explorer. Meeting new people living the usual and steering the wheels on new quests is what I'm on right now! So lets see where life takese until then ill be coming up with more ....! Keep following guys :-)

This is a poem for my mother's brother .. AKA. Roquemama. A small gift on his bday which is on the 7th Jan. I take this opportunity to thank you for whatever you have done for me till today and I know you will always continue to...!

From the very first day
When I was on the way
From that very moment
When you took the token.

You held me close
And never let me fall
Since then for all
You always took the call.

My every birthday
Was as special as you are today
Without you I felt
Like it was just another day.

We laughed and joked
But also chocked
My daddy you are for sure
whose heart is very pure

I know you have always been there
And I thank you for showing that extra care
I have always troubled you with my non sense
Still you have always welcomed me without any fence

The mermaids, the footballs
the swords and the steel walls,
the lovely blue cake,
And the creative things that you make

Your brain that triggers
Is a sign with figures
You give us the shivers
That no body delivers

I run out of words as I write this poem today
I hope I have delivered most of what I have to say
My love for you will never shrink
you are the best I can say it without a blink

Today is your birthday..!
And I would Like to say
There is none like you who would stay
Roquemama I'll love you always!

- Marian Lima.

It's a Puzzle ... !

It’s a puzzle,

Remembering the days when you were here

Sure puts a teardrop on my guitar

Remembering the days when you were there right next to me

Sure to share your smile with me

Remembering the days when you held my hand

Sure to promise me you would be there

Remembering the days when you kissed my cheeks

Sure to promise me that I was your very Christmas gift.

Remembering the very first day you met me

At the graveyard we set our hearts free

Remembering the times we cried together

Sure those made me feel so close to you

Remembering the times we laughed and shared our true selves

Sure that made me feel I’m all yours

Remembering our promises that we exchanged right under the cross

Sure that makes me kneel and pray for that very day

The very day I met you

The very day I first made you mine

The very day we shared a smile and fell in love

The very day I met the one I loved and set my heart on

That very day we vowed to be one

That very day today is now gone forever

I still wait in silence wanting that day to come back

I still wait in eagerness wanting to feel your presence

I still wait in impatience to feel your touch

I still wait anxiously for that one kiss on my cheeks

I still wait desperately for you

Knowing that you wouldn’t come back ever

I wait for my heart to console itself it’s time

I wait for my eyes to understand that they need to stop looking out for you

I wait for my cheeks to stop wanting the touch of your lips

I wait for my hands to convince me at every point in life that

Here I am alone and positive

Knowing you won’t come back

Knowing my time was up long ago

Knowing that I now I’m just another girl

Knowing that today there is someone else

I still wait and I will keep waiting…. 

Until I find the reason to stop looking

Until I find the other you

Until I find a heart for my heart

Until I find a soul that can win over mine

Until I find a man who would know me more than you did

Life is different today

Feels lifeless today

Life is lonely today

But my journey fills in for you

My heart is empty today

But no one to fill in this blankness 

My heart is filled with questions today

None of which could be answered anymore

My heart is filled with a complete emptiness

One that is hard to shed light on.

I know I need someone

A one to fill in for you

5 years down the line

I feel is just so cruel

I’m waiting for the one today

But finding none who’d stay

I wish I’d never loved

A man who’d go away

My tears are all dried up

Yet in my heart I pray

For a tear drop to fall
so I could get away

My life is on a standstill

An yet there is no glee

My life is just another picture

That entertains but has no fee

I wish for this to end someday

This emptiness, sadness and stray

I want to be happy

But who could show me the way?

 

I will be happy one day

I’m sure to live that day

It’s a puzzle today

But it’s sure to come my way …! 

That's It...!

A spark is all you need to kindle an eager young heart

A smile is all it takes to ignite the feeling at war

The impatience to connect from afar

Is what I wanted from the very start!

For years together

A song in my heart I sing to you

Hoping you’d be the one

I’d start a life again 

Only to have her in my life I hope

Nothing more I want but a scope

I never said I wanted a princess

But I asked for an angel I could impress

Waiting for the one

My eyes tire

Life is,

But a wire

Bend it, Mend it 

Love it, Mould it

But do not waste it

Until you have lived it

And then she came into my life

Telling me she was my only wife

But hey who is the other beloved

I did not know life was flooded

Looks are deceiving

But my heart is receiving

I know not the trick

What gives the feeling!

Just another boy

I’m broken and coy

No looks I have

But love to share

Why me I thought

Until that day

Where tips I caught

For the other way.

Life is now

A lavish dream

A heart break is all

It took for a realm 

My Family My friends!

Often we have this conflict in our teenage lives as to who are our friends and who are not, who should we trust and who we cannot? Who do we hangout with? Why can't I take decisions and why our parents make them for us? Well in the teenage years we often forget how to behave like teens and struggle to be older much faster. Well here is a short play I scripted for all the teens like me who I am sure have faced similar situations in life. Enjoy reading this guys and comment at the end this article.

Characters: 
Mother 
Father
Brother
Uncle Dan
Aunt Jane
Granny
Cousin one- Bob
Cousin two- Muriel
Cousin Three- Roche
Rich aunt – Aunt Dora
Friends - Rahul, Tanya, Sid

Scene 1
Simone - … (starts humming to her self… don’t shout its my birthday. we are gonna party like. its my birthday…)

Mom- …Simone..(Softly)..In a normal tone.. Simone.. Again..(She doesn't hear)…SIMONE…  

Simone-… What mom?

Mom- come here. come here baba..

Simone- to herself (I'm turning 21 and she still calls me baba.. OH God ..MOMs I tell u)
anyways what happened..tell me quick.. i'm busy.. I got to plan for my birthday.. Got loads of friends to invite.. you know I was thinking of having it at a disc.. Probably.. Poison..no Hawaiian Shack..or Jazz by the Bay.. My friends..will have a blast..What Say Mom

DAD – from behind.. DISCO.. U wanna go to the disco.. 
MOM- DISCO.. no Baba.. no.. see I thought ..we could have u b’day.. in our bld’g compound.. all the family.. will come..What your granny..will come and do at the disco

Simone-What did u say MOM.. Wait, wait family is coming.. Granny, and that aunt Jane.. with those kids of hers.. my dumb.. nerdy cousins.. bob and Muriel wt.. soda type glasses ..always drowned in their books.. OH MY GOD.. u want them at my party.. and that too in the bldg compound.. and Aunt Dora.. that show off wit her rich fancy jewelry. and clothes.. .. . MOM , DAD..listen.. I hate these people ... I don’t want family involved in my birthday.. I'm turning 21.. the age of my independence… I waited so many years.. for this day don’t spoil it for me.. listen.. I m having a party wit my friends at the disc.. and its not DISCO ... oh and for your info.. I have a name .. don't call me baba.. OH and one more thing..i don’t even want you'll at my party. Also 
(Simone storms out)

DAD- This daughter of ours.. 21 years we have struggled and brought her up and she talks to us like this.. it’s all your fault you do everything for her and spoil her .. 

MOM- Don’t blame me.. you have spoiled her .. by buying her loads and loads stuff.. Always when u came down.. from the gulf.. u never gave a ear to listen to her problems.. I was all alone and I brought her up.. 

(Mom and Dad get angry and move out grumbling...) 

(Simone is all grumpy.. and annoyed.. she says.. to herself..)

"How can they do this.. to me.. I don’t want this.. u knw I hate my family they are involved in everything I do.. Its not fair.. mom’s always making decisions without asking me .. I WISH I DON’T EVER SEE THEM EVER THE DAY I TURN 21!"

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SCENE 2 

(Simone gets up .. it’s the day of her birthday.. she goes out of her bed to check where are her parents.. she calls out no one is around… she gets all panicky… and starts dialing her moms cell .. Its says.. the number u trying to call is currently unavailable.
Then she try’s her dad….but no luck.., as much as she hates to .. but she has to do it anyway..she calls her relatives ..  But they aren't available either.. now she soon begins to panic..
She then tries her friends.)

 1)Rahul.. 
Simone- Hey Rahul.. 
Rahul(voice over).. hi.. Simone.. oh its your birthday rite? Happy birthday!

Simone- Yeah thanks.. by the way are you coming for the party at poison tonight?

Rahul- Oh ya ..Simone actually I umm see.. I'm down with fever ya.. I cannot make it ... you have fun..girl.. maybe next year I ll be there for your party got to go now .. taking rest you see ..bye!

Simone- OH OK..(Disappointed Simone says).. u take rest .. will miss u tho.

(Simone then tries to call Tanya..but  gets her voice mail..saying she is out of town.. and to leave a message.
She then receives a message from her friend Sid.. wishing her and saying he cant make it for the party..
Simone is almost in tears.. she is so upset and shocked.. she begins to cry.. just then..From behind)

SURPRISE!!!!!

(All yell, all her family members come and start singing the birthday song...
Simone runs and hugs her mom and dad)

Simone: OH MY GOD I thought I had a bad dream.. I thought u all were not there.. some thing that I wished for earlier but I was angry then.. I m glad to have ull back.. even my aunts and uncles and cusins.. and grannie and everyone..


MOM- Simone .. .. I knew Wht you wer goin thru..u r a big girl now.. Friends are always gonna come and I knw ur family is goin to take the backseat..

DAD-  Simone.. baba.. u have to remember.. who looked after you wen u were a baby.. wen.. ur muma was wrking it was ur grannie.. and who.. gave u their books so that we wudnt have to waste money.. ur nerdy.. cusins.. bob and Muriel.. and who passed on their fancy clothes..ur cusin Roche.. who helped.. ur dad to go to the gulf ur aunt Dora.. and it was ur aunt dan and jane who helped mom cook and arrange a party on such a short notice.


MOM- u must realize Simone.. u may go any where round the world.. get any job and all kind of friends but remember ur language and emotions ar best understood by your own family.. They have looked after u .. and being with you thru your ups and downs.. Simone..  Don’t ever forget your family..  I must say we wer wrong on our part.. too we should have asked u first what u wanted for your birthday rather than going ahead and deciding  ourselves.. 


Simone: I am so sorry I realized my mistake.. I dint mean too.. I should have discussed things with you. I never value the things u do for me .. And when its all not there I realize and its too late..I'm sorry for hurting you all.

(In the end.. Simone friends show up as well, when her mother tries to convince them how important this day was for Simone .. In the end they all have a 21st Birthday Blast...!!!

With the nerdy cousins and old granny.. her parents and aunts and uncles.. Simone is glad that her 21st birthday is a memorable one.. All thanks to her family.

I hope with this short skit I was able to send across a message most teens face today. It is very important every teen knows how to nurture and grow as individual with the right teen spirit .An attempt that is hopefully inspirational.If you like it please do post inn your comments. 

Ps: * This was enacted for a competition at I.C Parish Borivali, Mumbai , Maharashtra, India.